You may add your prayer request to our prayer wall using the form below. Once your prayer request is received, we will share it according to your instructions. Feel free to submit as many prayer requests as you like! Then it had caused me to think, “Why have I been deprived of a relationship with Daniel?” as I had NEVER spoken to anyone like that. Yet I would never think/do that in a prayer or heart beat.
In a rude tone of voice and lack of manners, I always did my best as a real woman and yet it’s me who is always in stagnation season. Just because I’m not with a Punjabi Sikh man, doesn’t mean that I’m a bad person and don’t get why I always have to keep everything a secret. There is a difference between causing problems in a relationship and keeping it between yourselves.
What I also don’t understand, is how Daniel’s mum had told me that I shouldn’t have to be ashamed or hiding my relationship with her son. So I decided to think and being positive, with the fact I had posted some messages on his old facebook. Nothing explicit, just thinking about when I was able to have a normal relationship in person. Even though, the only time I was able to see him without people having to judge or say many remarks. At the college where we first met, which was nice but sad because I could only see him once a week - Monday. Then all the pressure had been applied to me, causing a rift and it’s like I had to deal with all this mess.
Just because I have a man in heaven - the guy who pretended to be Daniel. Doesn’t mean that I shouldn’t be able to have a normal relationship. He even mentioned marriage to me, it sounded so real and I wanted to have all of that. It made me feel ready for marriage because I wanted to be happy and to do everything with a man. That’s what gets me out of bed in the morning too, along with marriage. Is knowing that I had made a man very happy and it was me who had done that. To put a smile on his face, allow him to dream and to provide for me. I wish to have a lifetime of photos and videos on my Google Photos where I can think about how both my husband and son had spent their best years with me. To be there, besides me until the very end and knowing that I had at least 73 years of love with them. As I had to have a relationship at 23/24, which is later than I wanted it to be.
Since, I couldn’t have a 72 year romance with Daniel straight away, from 17 and 18 years old.
Since I’m older, at 23, I haven’t been able to go out with a man in public. I want to get married and only spend one year being engaged. To celebrate an anniversary in person, because I didn’t get the chance to do anything at a young age with a man. Similar to my younger uncle who is 35 and his fiancee, who is 36. They got engaged, 9 months after meeting and getting married on 6th July 2024. They have a bit more patience than I do, because I wouldn't even wait 9 months to have a ring on my finger. Since, I would be one of those people who would happily get engaged within 3 days of meeting Daniel again in person. That’s the least I deserve, after him to stop speaking to me for 2 years.
As I'm not even able to go out on dates with a man and somehow, Daniel has done so much more than me. He mentioned how people only had a problem with his relationship with me. Yet these people didn't have a problem with his other thousand girlfriends and I don't get why.
I don't understand why I have to be punished for the colour of my skin. I always been told to always be proud of who I am. Yet I have to be ashamed of the colour of my skin and deprived of a relationship. When it weren't even my fault and I would be the last person this earth to ever make a person feel bad for loving someone of their own choice.
Regardless of the colour of their skin or not.
I know how to be a real woman, as I have the traits which are …
Empathetic
Confident
Passionate
She is strong
Kind
Supportive
Being mindfully strong
Knows how to trust
Knows she is flawed
Honest
Forgiving
Good listener
Encouraging
Accepting of her flaws
Gratitude defines her
Nurturing
Compassionate
Patient
Intelligent
Loyal
Avoiding gossip
Happiness comes within
Sense of humour
The only reason why I had posted on his old Facebook, was not a form of attention seeking or causing problems. It was because I haven’t spoken to Daniel like what normal couples have done for 2 years. I don’t understand why a woman like me has to be deprived of a relationship with the man she loves. Especially, because I always do things in order to be a real woman. Like volunteering, to enhance my career and to do well. Revise for my GCSE Maths exams, as I have the November resit exam and doing my best to keep my head above water. Just want to do well but I will need to look after myself. Daniel’s mum and stepdad wouldn’t understand the pain I had to go through. As they are both the same religion and skin colour. They were able to bring each other home, to their families and all approved of the relationship. Not being judged, since they were able to get married; in front of their God in church. Where nobody would object to their wedding because they are both seen as a couple who are able to be together. Unlike me, who has to get told every bad comment under the sun. How I’m not able to be seen with Daniel in public, let alone even going out for food with him in public.
Nobody has even spoken to me about how it’s making me feel this way. Not Daniel, his mum and stepdad. Yet I have to deal with all the mess,like I’m the one who has caused this. Why does nobody understand that all I ever wanted is a beautiful and loving relationship. Year, after year; just get told that things will happen to me. When nothing changes and everybody else can be with the person who they truly love
In fact, I have to get into trouble for expressing love for Daniel. Racist people get away with their opinions and I’m the one who is getting punished. It’s like I just can’t win because if I stay silent, keep it a secret and not be able to be seen in public. That keeps the peace and nobody will judge me. Despite the fact, it’s eating me up inside. Yet when I say something, I’m the one who is seen as causing problems and not able to be truly happy. It’s like I can’t win because when I speak out about how I feel; just get told to deal with it. No, I didn’t have a talk about relationships but I knew that falling in love is part of life. Throughout my school years, I had longed for a relationship and since it was taken from me in college. I had wanted to marry Daniel, not for his money, assets and will. In fact, I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him and be happy.
I wanted to get married to Daniel and have a son with him, to raise a family and have all of that. To do things together, yet I couldn’t even have that with him over the last 4 years. Where we are able to have those moments together, meet the family and play with Fluffy too. I get so angry seeing how everyone else is able to have the easier path with that. I want to have a husband and son at home waiting for me. To know that I have 2 wonderful men, that think the world of me and know that I’m a great woman. They appreciate everything I do for them, to give them a home and we are happy. Having those family days out, to the seaside in the summer and we are all there to celebrate birthdays. To have that stability and routine, where I know what’s happening but to still live life to the fullest. Don’t get why I always have to hide everything and miss out. While everyone else, they don’t need to hide their relationship and then get told comments in the process.
If anything was to happen to me at work, then the manager of the place would soon find someone to replace me. They wouldn’t care as much, unlike my husband and son who would be worried about me. Since my role(s) to them mean so much more and making those big, lifetime memories together. How I wish that Fluffy would be able to play in the garden, being there when Daniel and I get married.
I don’t understand how having an invisible relationship keeps the peace and for everyone else to be happy. On Wednesday 11th October 2023, in Health and Social Care. My teacher was talking about how being married means you are with that person 24/7. Over the last 2 years, I had been seeing so many signs from God about marriage. I do wish to marry Daniel, on 7th July 2025. As I’m not able to go out in public with a man and do anything. Everyone thinks that I don’t know what seeing people means, when I had never been given the chance to do this. Along with going to college and volunteering, caring for Fluffy. The only reason why I get out of bed in the morning, is knowing that I will be happily married to Daniel.
As someone who doesn’t sleep around with thousands of men everyday and night. To lie, steal and cheat. I know what it takes to be a real woman but somehow, I’m not allowed to have a normal relationship with Daniel. Yet other people can be with their special person because they are of the same religion and caste. Over the last 2 years, when my driving had stopped and Daniel had stopped talking to me. Getting out of bed is a real struggle because I didn’t want to wake up to having to live without Daniel. I really feel like I've aged a lot, despite the fact I'm doing my best to look after myself.
As I can't even wear my nice clothes seeing him, how can people live with themselves. For allowing me to hide in a bush and keeping things a secret. When all I wanted was a love, that brought the families together.
In March 2018, I had unexpectedly fallen in love and found the man who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with - Daniel. There, I could see all of my dreams come true and to have everything with him. I wasn't allowed to be seen with him in public because I got told how it’s embarrassing for a woman like me. Not even able to meet up with him, in a public place and do things with him. Just because I’m a different religion and colour of skin to him.
It’s like I just can’t win, because I have to be given an invisible relationship. To see him by chance and not be able to talk to him. Daniel lives down the road from me, he hasn’t spoken to me once. Somehow, me speaking to him “causes problems” and I don't get why. All I had ever wanted was a beautiful and extraordinary love story with him. Everyone else is able to have that with their special person, all because the colour of their skin is the same. After my driving had stopped, I have found it hard to get out of bed in the morning. No purpose to eat bananas anymore because I would always purchase bananas. In order for me to maintain and remember information for driving.
Just wanted to share this with you, as I know your here to help me. I've not been able to be seen in public with Daniel or to do anything.
Like having those sweet memories, unlike what everyone else is able to have. I didn't even want to get out of bed this morning. As I just don't get why a woman like me. Had to be deprived of a relationship with Daniel.
Or getting told that I'm causing problems or getting into trouble. For posting about how I just wanted to have a normal relationship with him.
Of course this is going to get to me, as I can't love any other man. The way I love Daniel and the fact whatever I seem to do. Is just not good enough.
Like I had just wrote some messages, as how i was trying to think positive. About the only time I felt truly happy in my life and got told to delete them.
As it will be me who gets into trouble and get why the person who told me to delete them. As they are protecting me and doing their job.
I just don't understand why a woman like me, has to keep everything a secret and private. That the only relationship I get with him, is that I close my eyes and that's where I see him.
Daniel's mum had told me that I shouldn't have had to hide my relationship from Daniel. Then I tried to think of it in a positive way and it somehow still not good enough.
Just because of the colour of my skin, the fact I don't sleep with thousands of men everyday and night. Wearing that Victotia Secret and other types of sexy underwear.
I'm not allowed to be seen with the man who I truly love.
That's why I wanted to marry him ages ago, as then I'm able to have that beautiful marriage with him until the very end.
I don't think that anyone had cared about my feelings, like how my family didn't even explain anything to me.
I remember that my late uncle had told me not to post about my relationship online. With him, I understood why because he always told the truth and accepted it.
The only reason why I had posted it on Facebook, is the fact I just wanted my voice to be heard. Trying to think positive and for somehow have everlasting, real, true, eternal love come my way until the very end.
I wanted to have a 72 year old romance with Daniel but that was taken from me.
Nobody else had actually sat me down and explained how things would be. They all just left it to fester away and expect me to carry on. Like it's nothing and my love life isn't a conspiracy theory to be solved.
These are my feelings and I honestly feel. Apart from you.
I didn't want to get out of bed this morning but I had some jobs to do, so needed to carry on.
The truth is, I didn't even want my friend to post the photo of when I had met up with Daniel. As I wanted to keep it offline and it felt like that choice was taken from me.
It's like, if I don't speak out then everyone is happy and they don't think I'm some embrassment. Yet, as soon as I feel happy and show some joy on my face. It always has to come crashing down and yet it's fine for anyone else to be with their special person.
This is why I do wish to marry Daniel soon, so I'm able to be with him more. As a woman like me isn't able to be with the man she loves, in physical form.
Despite the fact I do everything right as a woman.
I just have to keep everything a secret, otherwise I'll be the one in trouble.Everyone else can openly say they are happily in love. Yet they won't get judged but if I do it, I get into trouble. -Direction and guidance
-Pay off all the obligations on time
-Home. Continue to hold on to our home
-Peace and wisdom
-Time with the LORD
-Protection and health for my family and loved onesAnonymous
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