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Anonymous

Dear Daniel's mum,

First of all I'm only writing this on here as I want God to hear my voice and what I've been through.

I'm sorry that I weren't that normal type of woman who Daniel could bring home and meet the family. Like most sons do, when they had met their special someone who is known and seen as amazing.

Nobody in my hometown talks to me and I never thought that 5 years later. That I'm still hurt and disheartened for not having a normal proper, stable, stick together throughout everything relationship. I know that Daniel's mental wellness had impacted.

I knew that I couldn't save him, as that's something what he had to do himself. Like I had to work on myself but it's like God doesn't answer my prayers. Happiness doesn't come easy for a woman like me. As I always get the harder path in life and other people get the easy path.

I know that you and your husband - Daniel's stepdad had meant well. As of what you did because you didn't want Daniel doing anything stupid or rash. You was only protecting him, like any parent would.

Just most days I feel disheartened and disappointed in myself. Since, I don't have a man in heaven watching over me in heaven. A man who I had built a beautiful life and been blessed with an extraordinary love story written by God. I don't have a late boyfriend, fiancé, husband and ex boyfriend who truly loved me until his final breath.

That fairytale love but still being realistic and down to earth, as to make the relationship work. I was more than capable but no man ever gave me a chance.

Days like this, where I'm in constant stagnation mode I feel angry. That nothing has happened to me and so many people tell me things like "You will find love, it will happen to you and things work out in its own time."

Yet it doesn't feel like that, I thought I was going to be one of those beautiful women who would be celebrating my 10 year anniversary in my 20's. With the same man but you and your husband had made me feel disappointed in myself again.

I never lied, cheated or stole from Daniel. Neither did I wear or behave like a Victoria Secret model but nobody ever appreciates me as woman.

You have made me feel like that disappointment imbecile in myself again. Just like when I had felt, before meeting Daniel because no man wanted to date me. Nobody wants me, I have lost 5 years of what should of been the happiest years of my life. Happily in love but nobody ever asked how I feel.

Never mind the fact when everyone turned against your precious son. I was still there for him, on the phone despite my efforts and circumstances. Nobody asked how I felt and sat me down to have a good conversation. Instead everyone else left things to fester away, when I would of been a normal, civilised and dignified human being to actually have a conversation.

It's days like this where I feel disappointed with not having a man in heaven watching over me. I hadn't lost a significant other, spouse, partner or a family member. As I was thinking about Fiona Wade from Emmerdale and Samia Longchambon who had sadly lost their father's. Of course, this had been very sad and painful period of their life.

Except they had that good role model, of a man who had promised to look after their daughter. Make time, be there to protect her and teach her things in life. I can understand why Fiona and Samia had to wait a longer period of time for their destined, future husband - Simon Cotton and Sylvain Longchambon to be sent their way.

I understand why they had to wait until their 30's, for God to bless them with that good man. As to know how a man should treat a woman and give his whole life to her.

I don't understand why I have to wait a longer period of time because I haven't had a dad who loved me. The way Fiona Wade's dad loved her and thought very highly of him.

I feel ROBBED, cheated and lied to. Everyone tells me that I'm a good person and things will happen to me. They said that for 5 years but still haven't been blessed with an extraordinary love story written by God. I'm only saying this, as it just seems to be this way. It feels like those women who flash themselves, wear Victoria Secret (Or those type of underwear) and post naked pictures of themselves online.

Get all the credit and appraisal in life, blessed by God and everyone likes them. I don't post naked pictures of myself online. Not to mention that I don't sleep around with thousands of different men every day and night. I'm more than capable of keeping a man for years but been robbed from dating life.

No man wants to marry me soon after you and your husband put Daniel in no position but to leave me. I can't believe how fast time has gone and still haven't found love. I was more than capable of being a good daughter in law to you. As to keep the relationship in order and keep a home in order.

Since your lovely son isn't coming back and has pushed me away. Can you just pray that I will find love and get married soon. As I did everything I can but happiness always comes harder for me.

Ariana Grande is able to get married so soon after the loss of her true love - Mac Miller. She is able to keep 2 men happy by the time she turns 30. I never had the chance to love and keep 2 men happy before the age of 25.

I cant believe that this had been part of God's plan, to wait 9 years in 2018 to find love. Then I had a chance to be in a relationship and then you trashed it into a million pieces. Then, you and Daniel aren't affected by the cost of living due to the colour of your skin. Or the fact you had a long term relationship/marriage before COVID-19 happened.

That's why you get the easier path to success and I'm always getting the harder path.

If there's any God up in the sky, please can someone talk to me. Pray for me to find love again because I'm always in the waiting season. Everyone else gets to be in the blessed season, celebrating their special days and have a life.

Unlike me who hasn't done anything extraordinary and loved a man so much until his final breath. I wished that it was me who had that love story written by God and for people to stop interfering. I wish that you could of just spoken to me. As you get the easy path because nobody searched through your love letters with your husband.

Not to mention that you skipped school for the day, probably lied to your parents and gone to the seaside with your husband.(Before you got married) during a time where technology didn't exist.

No man wants to marry me and I blame you for praying to the God's, for blocking the pathway to find love.

From the woman who truly loved Daniel.

Received: February 22, 2023

Tara

Dear God, I thank you for everything and for being here for me when I feel like giving up. Lord I pray that I will feel important again, like I have a purpose. I pray to stop overthinking. I pray for my health and to work the pain away. I pray and ask that my mom have good doctor appointments this week and that she will get all she deserves. I ask for forgiveness In Jesus name, Aman.

Received: February 22, 2023

Anonymous

Dear GOD

Thank you for all blessings you have given me. Please bless my family friends and the world. GOD I ask you to bless my feelings give me strength and patience. I ask for happiness and love. Please bring those who are dear to me back into my life. Dylan and Randy. Thank you

Received: February 22, 2023

Anonymous

Lord i pray for strenghth that only You can provide

I pray that You draw Closer to h me during this Lenten Season

Amen

Received: February 22, 2023

Courtney

Lord first I come to you with thanksgiving in my heart! Thank you for all the blessings and miracles seen and unseen! I ask that when people encounter me today and everyday that they know that you are my God through my actions and words! Lord I am asking for healing, clarity, and guidance! Lord you know my situation and I know that all things work according to your perfect plan! Lord I ask that you touch my heart and make it while again! I ask that you teach me how to truly forgive so that I can keep healing! Lord I don’t want to go back to that dark place but I know that it is all apart of your plan! I ask also that you touch my sisters and be all that they need! I know that you are the river in the valley and I am in awe of your flow! Lord please flow that river for my sisters so that they may also have healing! I ask that you keep your have in my nieces and nephews as well Lord! Please guide them abs keep them close to you so that they will always know that although the world may ket them down the Lord never will! Lord I ask all these things in your son Jesus’ name! Amen!

Received: February 21, 2023