In a moment of vulnerability, I must share that I’ve been grappling with what I now recognize as a spirit of death. For quite some time, I’ve felt like a zombie, as if something in the spiritual realm has drained the life out of me, leaving me unable to recover. It’s been years of feeling half-alive, a realization I’ve only recently articulated. I’ve experienced profound losses, including the passing of beloved family members, the tragic murder of a caring ex-boyfriend, and the death of a cherished pastor from my church. As I navigate my adulthood, I’ve felt internally half-dead, struggling to draw closer to God and to understand my purpose. Every day feels like mere existence, like waking up just to go through the motions. I read the Bible and pray, yet I find myself feeling stagnant and without direction. I see others who, despite facing homelessness like I have, have managed to achieve their goals and realize their dreams. I yearn to prosper, to secure funding for my education, to sing again, perhaps to praise dance once more, and to relearn the piano. I want to acquire new skills, but my bladder condition often feels like a death sentence, affecting everything I do. I pray for healing for my bladder, my soul, and my mind. Every visit to the bathroom is a lengthy ordeal, and this condition hinders me in my daily activities and transitions. I seek a better life through God and holiness, hoping for deliverance from any demonic influences affecting my body and spirit. I truly believe in God’s solutions. I aspire to thrive, succeed, and distance myself from toxic relationships. Above all, I desire health and wellness in every aspect of my life.
Anonymous
Received: November 21, 2024
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